Sunday, August 26, 2012,
The German philosopher Nietzsche once wrote that, 'he who fights monsters should be careful, lest he becomes a monster; and he who looks long into the abyss should also know that the abyss stares back into him.'
Coming back to the quote, to me, it made a lot of sense. Had I not been shown the mirror, I wouldn't even know what I'd become - a monster. The constant pursuit of self fulfillment has altered my purpose of of living, blinded my vision of tomorrow. I found greater sense of achievement when I get people's approval. Never have I believed that respect is to be given proportional to one's age, neither do I believe the number of years of effort will amount to a proportional yield of success. Hence, the absence of such conformity in certain communities and religion appeal to me greatly. It might have been my way of attaining recognition to boost my low self esteem or that to balance my level of emotional quotient and melancholic nature. Who knows? All I know is that I'm at a juncture in life of deep confusion, wallowing in self-pity where my identity is at stake.
I find that Christian authors do reflect a better understanding and grasp over life's most important issues. Be it life's purpose and meaning or human relationships and desires, they echo the voices of my heart.
As my quest for significance was thwarted by the suffocating surroundings of a home in which I was a virtual prisoner to the mind and will of another, so my thoughts grew bleaker and unhappier, and my questioning constant. We allow the tyranny of urgency of living to overpower us and we forget to ask the really big questions. Too many of us are pursuing the peripheral issues of life without grappling with the truly important ones.
One thing I learnt was that without integrity no true happiness, and no real success is possible. I truly hope my naive trust in certain teachers won't leave me battered and torn by betrayal and regret.
Labels: Quotes and Ramblings
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