Been a while since I last came back here. And usually when I make such a sudden comeback, means I'm yet again zuzgwang-ed.

Prior to this my sister had also unleashed her wrath which now I'd fueled it further. Logically speaking, if two individuals could unintentionally derive a certain conclusion, there is definitely something to it.

It might have been harsh on my part, but somehow in the moment of heated debate, things happen. My 'tamed' tongue has finally revolted against it's master-mind, and spewed spikes channeled from the already corrupted heart.

You've always gotten my respect. Yet this time, you fell short of my expectations. I thought you always seem to be the most discerning at judging our character and motives. How is it possible you couldn't see that gasping loneliness in my heart. IF you had ever recalled our previous counselling sessions, then you would have noticed the common root of the problem. Hints much?

I must admit it is true that I don't tell people things. In fact, I think NOBODY ever knows what I'm doing. I try to tell, but they just wouldn't provide a satisfactory solution. (so why bother?) I thought perhaps they couldn't relate because they didn't participate in what I was doing. SO I began to show them bit by bit about the different aspect of my life. Something they didn't even expect I would do. However, no one really appreciates or see the big picture I had in mind.

Then some might argue that I just tell them the big picture lahh! Now I understand why God doesn't want to just reveal everything to men. He does! His creation is all around us. However, he is only revealed to those who seek him first. And only in his presence will they truly understand him.

Oh and another thing, no matter how it appears on the outside. A man's pride and ego DEFINITELY has it's priority in every men. 'Talk about the problems first, den we'll look into the solution..?'

Haix.. women -.-"

Labels: Blog

When Joey told me that I didn't need to do the video anymore, I felt mixed. It was surely a relief to hear that I had one less deadline to meet, but it felt awful as a friend. Why did I first pick up the camera? It was to create beautiful memories. Through the journey, I asked myself, what more useless is these bunch of photos if they were for the things in the past. Meaningless as a gust of the wind, meaningless as yesterday's newspapers. But what distinguishes yesterday's newspapers and a history text?

Photos are created for memories. One of which is creating memories that traps you in the past. the one where you constantly look at how you were before. Whether happy or sad, you are teleported back into your distant mind, starts of as a vaguely familiar setting. As you scan through the photo, you fit in every detail into your set. Then comes the sounds, the colors, the smell, the touch. All five senses have gathered and you relive the past.

True enough, those are one of the best standards of photography. What I call a 4D photograph.

However, what I'm currently perusing is future-photography. This is the kind where you make memories into dreams. An image so powerful, it impacts the mind and triggering the logical and emotional side of people to do a certain action or change a certain mindset.

I wish to give such a present to my friends. If only someone could give me such a present as well.

Come to think of it. Maybe there is one. :)

Labels: Hobby, Quotes and Ramblings

Been a week since Diablo 3 came out. I really regretted not pre-ordering.

Hence, I started playing Maplestory again to numb RPG cravings. This time there was the legends patch.

The new classes includes Cannon Shooter, Mercedes and Demon Slayer.

It's barely a week and I've got a Lvl 124 CS, Lvl 71 Flame Wiz, Lvl 102 Merc. I guess training is alot easier now. I'm still quite frustrated that my previous account got banned, a total asset of a whopping 20b gone + all the perma cash equips. I doubt it was because I bought my initial mesos capital with real money. (hmm I shouldn't be saying it out loud here though). But whatever the case, my account got banned and I'm currently resettled in Aquila.

Day 2:



Day 4:

Labels: Maplestory

NAC 2012 was drop-dead amazing. I was shown so many possibilities in life that ironically left me lost and inferior. For once, I scorn myself for being so insane all this while. It's generally about time to wake up,  seeing that our future is nothing but impending doom.

One thing to take away from this.

Don't work for the money. Learn to service people and the money will automatically flow into your pockets.

Something I don't quite understand yet.

Labels: Philosophy, Television