Saturday, September 29, 2012,
Today I got humorously embarrassed.
All I could blame is myself. I was technically well prepared, however, I was physically worn down. I did manage to get second in the contest but it wasn't a very proud moment. During my speech I'd blatantly said a racist joke. It was purposeful, however, things did not go as planned. There's a saying that what you throw out, comes right back at you. Despite my numerous successful attempts, the crowd today wasn't really the most suitable one to be targeted at. Hence, the moment I triggered my initial untactful statement, the response I got from the audience was literally breath-taking. I was hyper ventilating on the spot and my confidence was crushed. My mind went blank, and I forgot the subsequent lines to smother the fire. It was like stabbing their hearts and leaving the knife there.
So to all those foreign students I'd offended: I really did not mean to be crude and I sincerely apologize for my naiveness. Our relationship started on the wrong foot and I do hope I'll be able to regain back that respect.
Labels: Slices of Life, Toastmasters
9:37 PM
Wednesday, September 26, 2012,
Uchuu Kyoudai
The story follows two brothers, Mutta and Hibito Nanba, who, in the summer of 2006, discovered a UFO which flew to the moon. In 2025, as Hibito has managed to become an astronaut set to go to the moon, Mutta has not been so successful in achieving his dream of going to Mars. That is, until he is accepted to join an astronaut training program.
An Anime for those who have lost sight of their dreams in this oppressed society of negativity.
Dedicated to 2 of my best brothers - Jonathan and Berny - for various other relevance.
Labels: Gen Y, Slices of Life, Television
1:10 AM
Monday, September 3, 2012,
I'm posting here again and again that I'm exhausted. I think I really am and am going to crumble any time soon. Hoping some good Samaritan or God-sent angel will pick me up from the ground and embrace me. If she really came, I would take her to be my girlfriend. If he really came, I'll make him my mentor/BFF. haha Maybe that's why no one wants to approach me. Somehow people say I'm a friendly and approachable guy. Others, say I give out this intense aura of sturdiness that ironically intimidates people. So which am I? Whoever thinks I'm the later please.. I'm confessing right now that I'm like those hard shelled-soft core kinda person.
Anyway, phone has been ringing and jerking like mad. I can't even put my mind at ease when I blog. SO Irksome!! ARGHHH I really can't wait for Oct to end. Lord please give me strength.
Anyway! the actual reason for blogging today is not just to spin off some writer's inspiration for my upcoming contest but to proclaim the majestic arrival of my favorite animal to Singapore - Pandas!
Welcome Kai Kai and Jia Jia.
If I hadn't been so busy I would surely have taken leave to go see them. Maybe do a Panda photoshoot. haha! Speaking of Pandas would always remind me of someone. How we always use to debate whether the white of the Pandas are really white or yellowish. We never seem to come to a proper conclusion though. But we'll find out soon enough! Just you wait! THEY ARE DEFINITELY WHITE AND BLACK!!
Wonder when will we get Antarctic penguins here in Singapore? Did I mention I LOVE PENGUINS too? :)
So text me maybe if you would want to visit the Zoo with me! Cheers!
Labels: Quotes and Ramblings, Slices of Life
10:32 PM
Saturday, September 1, 2012,
Audience
I'm back again to finish up all my blog posts. Hopefully it would quench the thirst of all my eager readers.
Blogger has provided some really interesting tabs. I'm now able to track the source of my readers. Apparently, they seem to be from the UK and GER! Hello to all of you! It's really encouraging to see that there are still people following this seemingly dead blog. Thank you all my faithful readers! And I refuse to believe that the viewership came from the random spammers on my tag board. Nevertheless, this blog wasn't created for the masses, but for me to sort out my thoughts and possibly refer back to these documents to write an autobiography should I become successful in the future. :P
Just an update on my ordinary life, I'm currently busy with a couple of projects. It's seemingly strange that they are all climbing to its workload's peak and points to a similar purpose in life. Exhausted, life seems to pass by the days. My calendar is already filled till November. More and more people are calling me 'busy-man', should I take that as a compliment or an insult? Personally, I appreciate such comments. It's a way I keep myself in check - if I'd made full use of every bit of my life. In fact, I love it when people call me that, it doesn't show, but it really glows inside. I do pray that I'm still living a God-led life and if so, may he place respectable mentors and teachers in my life. The journey gets lonely when I'm a beater.
Labels: Quotes and Ramblings, Slices of Life
1:51 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2012,
She wandered far infront as I obnoxiously tailed behind her. Moments later she skipped into a bend. It must have been pure luck to sniffed out the devil that easily. How dangerous is a women's sixth sense!
To my surprise, she smiled as she turned to look back. Why has that particular frame of her freeze in my mind? Have I accelerated faster than time? No I have not, quite the opposite. I stood firmly as she came closer, way too close.. The light breeze carried her hair far enough for a few strands to playfully flirt with my lips. Before, I could barely taste the sweetness of the touch, they gently slid down my face and back onto her shoulders. Throughout the entire time, my eyes were fixated on this pleasantly pretty face. She was cute. Ponytailed wearing a striking red cap, like those avid baseball fan if you know what I mean.
She spoke in a foreign accent, American? I couldn't guess.. but it's definitely not local.
'Hi there! Do you know where's the nearest MRT station?' she asked politely.
It struck me hard. I truly regretted that very moment for not investing in a smartphone with googlemaps or heeding my mum's advice to recognize the Singapore streets. I couldn't answer, and told her that we could look for it together. She nodded in agreement.
I walked ahead, desperately wrecking my brain for a decent pickup line. Silence fell upon us as we walked between deserted temples and through abandoned buildings. It wasn't long before she told me she would head back and find an alternative route. Well okay? What more of a loser could I have shown then? As she walked on, she turned and wished me Good luck! I copied the response. -.-"
As I continued moving forward, it wasn't long before I spotted the SMRT logo.
AH we should've exchanged numbers so that one could contact the other if we found a way out. WHY didn't I think of that..?
Labels: Love, Slices of Life
8:00 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2012,
I've got a new hobby.
It goes like this:
Step 1: Find a gorgeous, well dressed lady in a crowded 2-way corridor (eg. MRT crossline bridges or tunnels)
Step 2 : Pace beside/behind her.
Step 3: Appear confident and 'intimate'
Step 4: Look into the eyes of everyone that walk pass.
You should experience something magical.
1. All the guys will sometime or another look, glance or even peek at the lady.
2. Then they will look at you, appearing shocked or disgusted if they think she is too good or too old for you.
3. But when you throw a fierce glance back at them, they will shudder and look away. HAHA
4. For females, they'll only look if she's confident and well dressed (Step 1)
5. Then they will look at you impressed. Sometimes even checking you out.
6. Should they look at you first, I would like to congratulate you! In this case I recommend you subtly smile back.
Tips for beginners:
1. Dress for the occasion. You must never dress-down, else you will not appear convincing enough. Remember, it's all in the first impression :P
2. You may consider to wear shades. So that no one can see who/what you are looking at. Then again, asians CANNOT pull this off. Apparently you look significantly retarded to wear them indoors. I have no idea why Europeans look cool whenever, wherever with shades.
3.Walking behind is always safer, but please make sure you are taller than the lady.
Advanced strategies:
There are certain ways to look intimate, mainly to manipulate human nature and biology as well as the Singaporean culture. For more details do contact me, and we could discuss it over coffee. :)
Labels: Hobby, Slices of Life
11:13 PM
Let me introduce you to a stranger I think you are going to like - yourself.
That's right, I know you've bee spending a lot of time with this person. Perhaps you've grown tired of him or her, even hoping to exchange your old boring self for an entirely new one. Before you do that though, consider the possibility that you scarcely know yourself.
I'm don't mean you are somehow unaware of what you like or don't
I'm saying your conscious mind is far less aware of the reasons you do things than you think it is.
Labels: Philosophy, Slices of Life
3:48 AM
Let me introduce you to this unnatural occurrence the 'residual smile'.
I thought I'd ingeniously created this term for a seemly common yet unmentioned phenomenon.
Sadly, there was already an 'official' definition as sourced from urban dictionary.com:
Residual Smile
When a group of friends is talking and a laugh occurs, while still smiling you make direct eye contact with a stranger and it quickly becomes creepy.
However, the preamble fetches far more than the given scenario; in fact it could encompass anything that gives birth to the initial laughter or smile.
Anyway, the reason I'd thought about this arose from sometime ago.
It's one of the awkward moments in life worse than laughing to yourself on the public transport while watching a comedy or listening to the Muttons.
In this case, I had just conversed with an old buddy. The residual happiness from that random emotional encounter had churned out a sorta freakish grin. Then, my eyes met the eyes of the next being. I must say, She. Was. Gorgeous! Subconsciousness, my body naturally continued to react in apparently the most unfortunate way..
Brows raised, shoulders dipped and a little misfooting. Adding on to the weird smile, my jaw dropped.
Oh my.. Just how creepy did I look?
In the moment of eye-candilicious panic attack, I regained my composure as quick as I could clear my throat and misdirected my eyes to the seemly next most attractive thing - the pillar on the left. Not all hope was lost, I gently tilted my head and gazed back in her direction. She was looking at me! I carefully nodded and flashed a cool smile.
She smiled back.
I guess I made an impression? HAHA!
Labels: Slices of Life
3:45 AM
Tuesday, April 10, 2012,
It's 2.27am..
Love rain
I snuck out for this.
It's worth it.
Labels: Slices of Life
2:26 AM
Saturday, April 7, 2012,
Nostalgia
Just an hour ago, I introduced Vanessa to some pokemon gametunes,, the entire collection of pokemon gametunes. It was so nostalgic I almost teared. Only a loyal pokemon player would truely understand indulge in the melodies. Especially the following,
Littleroot town - Hoenn Region's starting town. OHH how I love this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=im6tbN9SZXsN's Farewell - The most bitter of all Songs. Asking Vanessa to play this song on the piano :)
Labels: Slices of Life
12:21 AM
Saturday, March 24, 2012,
..it's also today that I'd resumed my running routine. The first day always marks the standard for improvement. No doubt the results were way below where I'd left off but well above my initial expectations. 'Pushing myself to the limits' is one of the few principles I live by, in which today's case is of no exception (though it's a sabbathic day). And by pushing myself to the limit is where you truly understand where you stand.
I was expecting to kick start some sort of a health therapy that I'd formulated. It's still in the hypothetical stage, but I'm working on it. The theory is 'sweat detoxification'. It's probably all over the web and a teaching passed on from generations and generations to come, but it's something I've yet to figure it myself. Day one has been fulfilling, indeed it has made known to me where my standards are and reflects quite a bit on my current life.
My ears were popping, the kind of feeling when u blow when u pinch ur nose and mouth : goes to show how much I've been blasting the volume of my earpiece.
My eyes were seeing flashes of light : the non-stop amount of time I stared at the sceen.
My flabby arms : Not training for 2 months
My thighs were constricting faster than ever : Not training for 2 months
My back was aching : think it's the bed.
Through this self assessment, the following have been included in my to-do list:
Routine exercise (aerobic and muscular training)
Drink 3L of water everyday
Try to sleep before 12mn :P
Rest is impt, but it's only sweeter when the day's work is done.
Labels: Excercise, Slices of Life
12:29 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2012,
Sometimes I wished for a sign to show that you'd care,
Sometimes I wished you'd help me win my bet with God.Sometimes I wished I wasn't in the friend-zone you'd created,
Sometimes I wished you'd not treat me like how I treat the Others.
Sometimes I wished I'd the courage to take you hand,
Sometimes I wished you'd be here with me instead of with that other guy.
Sometimes I wished you and I could be together
But You and I were never meant for each other.
Labels: Love, Quotes and Ramblings, Slices of Life
1:23 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2012,
I dreamt of her agn.
This time she had curls and blue eyes.
The set was in the 60s.
We were European missionary students
studying hard and taking baby steps to our goal.
Then it was time.
I had to leave her.
I was going to China with this person who needed my help.
He was an artist.
He painted a portrait of me,
then of both of us.
The forecast of the sky was Sunset
Her curls were outlined and shimmered in the fallen light.
I had to leave her.
I had to leave here.
Labels: Love, Slices of Life
6:58 AM
Monday, February 13, 2012,
Set your standards to the world.
Compared to your friends, you might have a good set of skills.
That doesn't mean you can gloat or slack.
Take a look around you.
Look at how much better other people are.
Can you really consider yourself to be a pro?
So humble yourself and never be afraid to chase perfection.
Because just a tiny flaw, you won't even be considered entry to heaven
Labels: Slices of Life
5:09 PM
Saturday, February 11, 2012,
Are Birthdays what goes to show how important you are to a person?
Then, it might seem that those whom I perceive close, aint treating me as impt at all.. :(
I used to think that celebrating with the ones you really love is the best gift one could give. Hence, the people closest to me seldom receive any presents on their birthday. What I'd wish for before the candles, aint materialistic wealth, but intangible gifts and to be loved by God and special someones.
False hopes and unsound wishes.
Wisdom and truth always worked against me.
But I'm thankful to have completed another decade of my life. The last moments of my Birthday, I'd prayed and reflected on my life.
"Experience is not what happens to you: is what you do with what happens to you"
Labels: Slices of Life
11:48 PM
Tuesday, January 31, 2012,
Oh my, I couldn't even keep up with my resolution in this subsequent post. Shan't give the excuse of travelling to Kukup nor OT-ing in the Army. However, the debts of sleep taxed on my body is starting to overwhelm me. It's frustrating to be on the verge of falling (ill), yet recover.. juust enough to survive the next moment. As though drowning and gasping for breath, with your will, like a hand, pulling ur hair to keep you afloat. I guess it's what my boss mentioned about the urge to fulfill your responsibilities, probably driven by passion, determination or even pride.
Ugh, my head is brainwashed by army stuff now.. I even dreamt about it last night. -.-" I honestly suspect it's something to do with the chicken they feed us. In every meal of every day, there a chunk of chicken would lay, mass cooked in every way. And it has become part of my staple diet. Our dear matured elders always say 'chi yan bi ni chi fan duo'. Likewise, NSFs can proudly boast to their female friends 'wo chi ji bi ni chi ya duo'.
Okay, that was a dirty pun.. but 'like if you get it'!
haha.. that's like thE most popular phase in facebook and youtube nowadays. Shows how much people crave for others attention eh?
Anyway, congrats to Zheng Yang for being the first to discover this joyous revival. I'm astonished at how fast it took him to find out, let's see who else will come visit..
After that rather obvious fb declaration, I'm guessing more would come very soon..
so much for being top-secret secret. -.-" :P
Labels: Slices of Life
1:44 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2012,
Ah yes.. If anyone of you have been following my twitter, this is the top-secret secret folder I was talking about. Most of these secrets are locked away from the public's visibility though. In any case, the sudden urge to revive this blog from it's vegetable state was primarily because the 140 characters in ea twit isn't enough to capacitate my abundant thoughts.
This is a probably thE best way to lubricate my mental gears. How long have I last worked my brain, How long have I last channeled those thoughts into action, How long have I last persevered through those actions in order to watch it bear fruits And seeds..?
There's a guy I met at NLP who once told me that 80% of the key to success is to first take action. Which is very true, one of the essential quality of a leader is being proactive. Whether you chose to be a dominant leader or a servant leader, it is through taking initiative that really makes you shine.
hmm this year's resolution for MEEpoks shall be to keep up at least a fortnightly post. And then that shall be the indication to do mentoring. A personal struggle, yet a potential breakthrough.
Looking back at the immediate last post, it's the time for Novices tourny again. I kinda miss fencing.. my teammates.. my friends.. I never forget my promises, the promise we made to coach to form the CJFencing Alumni. But ever since I walked out on the team the distance between us grew too far and daunting. The days I dream we could reconcile once agn, the days I pray once more..
Labels: Slices of Life
4:14 PM
Saturday, December 26, 2009,
Oh gosh, what's with this sudden obsession with Taiwanese, Korean and English dramas?!!? ><"
Let's see..
It all started with this sudden Hi my sweetheart! craze in church that got me curious.
Gobbled down 8 episodes in 2 nights.. haha..
and currently (day4) I have a proud record of :
Hi my sweetheart! ep8
Momo Love ep10
Autumn Concerto ep1
Knock Knock loving you ep1
Black and White ep5 (only watched this ep :P)
Corner with love ep3
ToGetHer Superstar express ep4
You're Beautiful ep5
Boys Over Flower ep14
Glee ep2
Gossip Girl s1 ep1
Pretty cool eh! :D
BUT Adel reminded me hw horrigible my eyebags are nw..
ARGH!
Shall sleep early today bah?
Glutting down so many romance dramas in one shot is making me dreamy again..
SWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTT :D
[drafted: 26 dec 09 Editted: 27 dec 09]
Labels: Slices of Life
2:00 AM
Thursday, December 24, 2009,
My dear Beloved bp,
This is my first letter to you. Sadly, it's also the last. I've already lost count how long we've been together. WHY? Why did you leave without saying goodbye. No matter where you are, I'm sure u can hear my screams of sorrow.
You kept my memories, without you I couldn't dream anymore. I lay in bed at night, staring blankly into space.
You have no idea how much I missed you! My arms missed holding you. My eyes missed your smile. I missed your smell. Missed snuggling close to you under the blanket in a cold rainy day.
Missed your company when we watched movies at home. Missed telling you those silly dé·jà vu that you claimed to foresee. Missed your comforting arms around me when I cry. Missed the soft spot on toe I love to take advantage of. Missed sliding my arms under ur back in the middle of the night. I missed you.
In one's moment of grief, sometimes it is difficult to come up with appropriate words to say.
There will always be a place in my heart that you'll be fondly, fondly remembered. But now it's time for me to seek my own future.
With all my love,
Kenneth T
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What are memories?
Biogically explained: Scientists have found that memories involve many regions of the brain that work together. First, information is acquired from our senses and these information is processed and finally it is "stored" as a memory.Long story short, memories are the stimulation of information stored in the connections between neurons.
That's why first impression counts I guess?
Once you are associated with something, you'd be bounded and clumped to that particular neuron connection.
For example, if I see someone dig his nose -> memory pathway established -> links eww disgusting fella!
But changing this first impression is not impossible. and might not be as difficult as everyone think it is.
hmm..
What's the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear the word 'RED'?
I thought of blue.. (I think red in my brain is registered under the colour-neuron, since I was first exposed to this word when I was taught colours by mumzie..)
Then.. what's the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear the word "BALLS"?
Such an innocent word.. yet you think of..
Certain things does trigger certain memories.
Recently, I've been chancing upon many 11:11s.
Someone once told me that when you unexpectedly see 11:11,
it means someone is missing you.
But when i do see them, I do not wonder who could be missing me.
Instead, it makes me think about that person.
What's she doing now? *listing out possiblilties* ...
(O.O!)
Could she be missing me too?
Hey! don't 想歪歪 ah!!
Memories are one of the many wonderful gifts God has given to us. *Praise!*
Labels: Philosophy, Slices of Life
2:30 AM
Saturday, November 21, 2009,
Recently been troubled and stressed TTM over a couple of issues.
Tell me I'm inefficient, call me lazy.. Why does work never get done?
Yeah yeah.. I'm acting dumb again and yes I'm slacking here writing this post while time spent can be used for things with higher priority. Just needed to pour out my negative thoughts and emotions again. Seems like tt's the only purpose of this blog nw.. :P
On the bright side, the blog got a new update! :D
Anyways, haven had much sleep over the past few days. The price to pay for having a "fufilling" life.. haha..
and maybe because of that..
My head hurts, as though a 9.0 magnitude earthquake shook it. I can practically feel the crack lines on my skull. Even slightest movements of the body or mind, is an attempt to squeeze my brain out of that narrow gap, meanwhile creating brain juice tsunamis. And all those helpless brain cells struggle to stay alive. Haha.. it's like a mini '2012' scenario! Which also means if I don't act fast.. GG :P
Alrighty then! I've just popped a tablet of panadol into my mouth, hoping it would ease the pain; at least psychologically.
Think twice, think wise..
Guess I shall procrastinate once more.
Goodnights!
Labels: Slices of Life
11:24 PM
Just close your eyes, and let the music take you to those faraway places of your childhood, and let the slow, gentle rifts tear those memories you like salt in an old wound, knowing you'll never experience them again.
Sadness was never so happy.
Those first thirty seconds or so are the best bits, though. Something about the simple lack of complexity sends shivers down your spine.
Words cannot express the memories that have resurfaced...